MONOLOGUE WRITTEN BY CLYDE LEWIS

There are a lot of people who have been asking me about the strange books I have been reading which are have dated as 17th century letters and communications between friars, seers and sages.

It was a time in history, roughly four hundred years ago, where the Autumn meant that the darkness would come. The darkness of course was a precursor to what was known as the Winter’s death.

This is the true reason for the Halloween season – it has more to do with death and supernatural experiences than the trapping of witchcraft and Satanism.

In that period of time, the threat of supernatural attacks were very real. It has to be stressed that many of the thesis on Vampires and Werewolves that were written by the scribes dealt with shape-shifting and personality upheavals where human beings who are fearful of dying would seek out different ways to cheat death.

The elixir ambrosia was consumed by alleged Vampires and of course those with the personality of the wolf would not only drink of the blood of man, but consume its flesh.

The consumption of ambrosia was typically reserved for divine beings. However, those who drank the human nectar or blood believed that they would attain eternal life, the practice allegedly awakened people to the secret of transcendence. In time, we would learn that there is no real death, only the secret to resurrection is found in the blood and the way we can purify it.

In the grimiore entitled, the Vampire Codex, we read that we are neither wholly born nor wholly made what we are. The choice for us to become was made long ago. From that time onward, we have been reborn again and again, carrying within us in every lifetime the seed of what we are.

Sometimes we forget ourselves, and wander our lives like sleepwalkers, only half-aware of our true natures. Yet sleeping or awakened, we are born with the potential for transformation.

Awakening is a process of expanded awareness. Anyone with gifts and talents of a subtle nature undergoes an awakening in their life. This is when they come into their own; finally accepting what has been latent within them since birth. For us, the process can be traumatic, as the existence we awaken to opens us up to a host of strange thoughts, sensations, and experiences which lie outside the limits accepted even by other Awakened.

Awakening is the alchemical forge in which we are transformed from dross to spiritual gold. It is the recalling of a part of our selves that has become clouded over time. It is becoming more than the little self of this lifetime, grasping the totality of who we were and who we are to be – our Essential Self.

Some of us have greater potential than others. Some are born with an instinctive understanding of their potential and they may gradually come to realize that potential on their own. They recall without prompting and their power is great.

The bulk of our numbers are born ignorant to what they are. As they grow and mature, there are subtle hints of the latent power, but fear and self-doubt generally keep these from being acknowledged and accepted. Such as these must be awakened to their true selves by another of our number already familiar to our ways.

There are two rituals of initiation. The Lesser Initiation is an exchange of feeding which occurs between the teacher and the initiate. The initiate is drained deeply, often for the first time. This heightens his awareness of his energy body and will often catalyze him into realizing his potential in the next few days. The sensations that this process inspires are usually too intense to ignore or explain away. If fed from deeply enough, his instincts will overcome him and he will feed from others in order to replenish his depleted system.

The Greater Initiation involves a ritual death and rebirth which occurs on both the physical and spiritual levels for the initiate. It is visionary and shamanic in nature and forces the initiate to face himself and all that he has been within the boundaries of his own soul. Like all deaths and rebirths, this ritual strips away old identities and assumptions. The little self of this lifetime is subsumed into the greater Self, and the initiate is irrevocably changed. This rite is reserved for only the strongest minds, for any who are weak or filled with fear may not survive the initiation. Their minds can be blown away like dry autumn leaves in the face of the totality of who they are.

This is how the satanic lot cheats death – the blood exchange is the alchemical process; however, for those of us who have accepted our fate; our own deaths. We may not know that science now tells us that dying is a process and that as they begin to understand it – we may again be able to cheat death or at least prolong our lives.

We often talk about death as a point in time. One moment you’re alive and the next, when your heart stops beating and your lungs stop breathing, you are clinically dead. This definition tempts us to view death as a clear-cut event, like the flip of a switch.

I always wondered if it was more complex that being turned off and then burning out.

I found out during the Labor Day weekend of 2014.

I was spending the weekend with my friend Roger and his girlfriend. I woke up that morning and felt nauseous. I was thinking that I drank too much the night before and probably ate too much as well. The nausea then became a bit of dizziness.

I figured a hot shower would help so I got up and showered.

As I stepped out of the shower, the dizziness got worse – I was then feeling like the world was closing in on me. My vision narrowed to a tunnel effect. I quickly moved to the couch and told my friend Roger “I think I am dying.”

At first he thought I was kidding – and I said “I feel like I am suffocating… I am having trouble breathing, something is wrong with me.”

Roger didn’t hesitate and dialed 911.

The thing I remember before blacking out was that as I was looking forward, everything around me seemed to liquefy. There was a ringing in my ears and then a bright light appeared just above me, right between my eyes.

Its intensity seemed to be just above my eyes in the middle of my forehead. I knew what it meant and I was afraid of it. The next thing I remember is waking up in a nearby hospital. My friend Roger was looking after me and said the doctors are very surprised I survived.

I thought at first that I had a heart attack or a stroke. The doctor came in the room and said that I had 5 pulmonary embolisms. I knew that an embolism was a blood clot and that when it dislodges it can go into the brain or the heart and it meant instant death.

When I asked the doctor exactly what happened, he said “Imagine your lungs getting hit with 5 mucous bullets about the size of the lead tip in pencil that is what has happened to you.”

I could not even fathom it, and then he showed me my lung X-ray and there they were all in different areas of my lungs. He told me that the survival rate of one embolism is low – I had five. I was very lucky.

In fact, lucky is an understatement.

I was able to recover, but the experience of reaching the precipice of near death was something I wasn’t expecting and my experience was one that I felt was unique in a lot of ways mainly because I wouldn’t say that it was a religious experience or that it renewed my faith in an afterlife .

What it did is it made me a bit curious about just how dead we really are when a doctor decides to declare us dead. In other words, I always worried that when someone declares you dead – you really aren’t dead.

You are still dying and even though your heart stops beating your brain is struggling to start back up again—if no one is there to help, you are left to helplessly die slowly.

Some people report having seen light at the end of a tunnel, while others claim to have floated above their body, watching as medics save their lives.

But the reality of near-death experiences has always been debated.

Scientists are now saying that when you die, you are fully aware that you are dead, which may explain near death memory.

A new study finds that your consciousness continues after you have died.

There is evidence to suggest someone who has died may even hear their own death being announced by medics.

The findings echo the plot line of the new Hollywood re-make of 90’s cult horror movie, Flatliners. I remember the original film and it made me feel uncomfortable when I saw it then.

In the film a group of young doctors embark on a dangerous experiment by taking turns to chemically induce their heart to stop and flatline to find out exactly what happens in the afterlife.

A team from New York University Langone School of Medicine investigated the very same question through twin studies in Europe and the US of people who have suffered cardiac arrest and ‘come back’ to life, in the largest study of its kind.

Study author Dr. Sam Parnia told Live Science that people describe watching doctors and nurses working on them and they’ll describe having awareness of full conversations, of visual things that were going on, that would otherwise not be known to them.

He said these recollections were then verified by medical and nursing staff who reported their patients, who were technically dead, could remember details of what they were saying.

Medically speaking, doctors define death based on when the heart no longer beats, which then immediately cuts off blood supply to the brain. Technically, that’s how you get the time of death – it’s all based on the moment when the heart stops.

Once that happens, blood no longer circulates to the brain, which means brain function halts almost instantaneously.

You lose all your brain stem reflexes; your gag reflex, your pupil reflex, all that is gone is the brain’s cerebral cortex, which is responsible for thinking and processing information from the five senses – it also instantly flatlines.

This means that within 2 to 20 seconds, no brainwaves will be detected on an electric monitor.

This sparks a chain reaction of cellular processes that will result in the death of brain cells. However, this can take hours after the heart has stopped.

And performing cardiopulmonary resuscitation (CPR) that hasn’t successfully revived a patient can still result in sending some blood to the brain – about 15 percent of what it requires to function normally.

But brain cell death is still happening, just at a slightly slower rate.

So now we know that even with the heart stopped and the brain at flatline that the cell death within the brain keeps the brain scrambling for life. In that process, we are awakening elsewhere.

Now believe it or not this type of death process is exactly how computer reacts when its artificial neural network is killed or shut down.

In a published article in Scientific American called “Daisy Daisy” by Philip Yam it is reported that when a type of computer program termed an “artificial neural network” is “killed” by cutting links between its units, it in effect approaches a state which “might” be something like biological “death.” S.L. Thaler, a physicist at McDonnell Douglas, has been systematically chopping up artificial neural networks.

He has found that when between 10% and 60% of the network connections have been severed, the program generates primarily nonsense. But, as the 90% (near-death!) level is approached, the network’s output is composed more and more of previously learned information.

It is reminiscent of the death of HAL, an AI computer from 2001: A Space Odyssey. As HAL was being shut down or killed he sang the song “Daisy Daisy.”

Also, when untrained artificial neural networks were slowly killed, they responded only with nonsense. This is fascinating because what we may learn from this is that a soul may just be a series of electronic impulses that are expelled during death.

Besides having my near death experience, I am a person who has been under the knife at least three times for cancerous tumor removal and it has always been my biggest worry; in fact, a nightmare to ponder: How would you know whether you slept through the whole procedure? How would you know if you came close to dying, or have you died and they just don’t tell you.

How many other people have had lives that have been so over the edge that they have had experiences where they know they should have died but by some grace of god or a higher power they have always survived and given the opportunity to improve their lives?

I have had discussions about this before with people and I have always heard some very harrowing experiences that can only be described as miraculous.

More and more, I am reading studies which are showing some sort of signals sparks in the brain after clinical death.

It is believed that one in five people remember experiences happening during their clinical deaths after being revived.

Although they were unconscious, unresponsive and clinically dead at the time, they come back with stories of bright lights, “realer than real” memories, and meetings with people they knew. Some scientists have dismissed these accounts outright. Others have taken NDEs as proof of a religious afterlife or a consciousness that lives on outside the body.

But is this just a product of a slowly dying brain trying to find data?

It is as if the brain goes into dream mode and the dream seems to continue for an eternity until it completely decomposes.

Written by Ron Patton